Friday, July 22, 2005

the wildhearts-sky babies

Back on my planet, they laugh at my jokes
And everyone drinks and everyone smokes
No one speaks 'less there's something to say
There's no false words just telecommunique

Back on my planet you cannot tell lies
'Cos everyone can see it by the look in your eye
Parties all last for a couple of days
No one sleeps 'cos beds are prohibited

Back on my planet, silence is granted
We're laughing at the earthlings
Back on my planet, back on my planet

And meanwhile…

Back on my planet where dinosaurs roam
With uncut TV beaming into your home
As mother nature being eager and free
Money don't talk just givin' ability

Back on my planet, rules are all slanted
We're talkin' to be broken
Back on my planet, back on my planet, back on my planet…

Take a trip down an open road, all the eyes on an evening star
Gets to move a bit closer to the ground, like night at play
Wanna know what I need to know, wanna see that we ain't in charge
Where the superpowers will try to run it down
All alone, you're not alone
'Cos it's a meeting time for a different neighbour, small and slight and grey

There's something going on
There's something going on
There's something going on

Look into those eyes, it comes as no surprise
" It's little more than science fiction" the government replies
They could be taking our daughters, they could be taking our ladies
Making sky babies, sky babies, sky babies

I, I'm looking at the sky tonight, everything clear and defined, just like the last time
All ideas inside my head, anything like a real one
I'm looking from the floor tonight, weary of humankind
Tired of the chains that bind, wasting time on diatribe

And all the time the walls are closing in, I'm feeling stuck inside again
With something more divine than suicide, more generous than faith

'Cos when I see a new sun arrive, I'll be myself bathin' on the other side
A simple way to win with ease, I'll take a cheap seat please

'Cos you're the only one thing I wanna know
So won't you take me with you when you go
And there's a million feelings I wanna show
If you take me with you when you go

Yesterdays dreams don't mean nothing it seems
'Cos the big life keeps them waiting
And the people we find with another thin mind
They just don't care at all
And the halcyon days of innocence stays
As a memory plays it one more time
Here today, gone tomorrow

This is it in layman's terms, phenomenon of UFOs
Is well acknowledged by the state but secret to the president
Employed to be a public face and keep the public feeling safe
But higher powers in government hide something a million times
The size of the killing of JFK, the CIA are aware that higher
Powers exist with untold knowledge of life and death dimension
It could alter public awareness of religion, which is the only faith
That keeps us all in true control, and that's why we can never know

They're shaking and they're fucking us again
'Cos you're the only one thing I wanna know

So won't you take me with you when you go
And there's a million feelings I wanna show
If you take me with you when you go
'Cos you're the only one thing I wanna know
So won't you take me with you when you go
And there's a million feelings I wanna show
If you take me with you when you go
'Cos you're the only one thing I wanna know

wildhearts lyrics

Friday, July 15, 2005


Sorry, I just love that title(It's a Therapy? song dontcha know)(and yes that question mark is 1. Supposed to be there and 2. Spiffing)(also they are a fantastic band, who are great live, and there is a link to their wonderfully title website in my sidebar over there)(also they are Irish)(if you find that at all interesting)(which you probably won't)(you may be wondering why I am using so many brackets, well I can assure you that is also what I am thinking)(that and peanuts)(coated with Elephant)(ferjhgrehtgfrwehtghrwuhtguhreuhg)

I've Got A Bike, You Can Ride It If You Like...

As the voice of the silent majority, of which I am no longer a member, obviously...speaking for those people that would have shot that burglar a third time...

I am yellow. Hello.

With the advent of 'intelligence' came great responsibility, which mankind bore with their typical style...they competely fucked everything up. Mother nature lies crying onto a broked flower, lying wilted in the smoke, and vows her revenge. Mankind must be stopped. They have the ability to create and destroy. For shame then that they use their ability to create, but create that which will destroy. We truly are devoid of humanity, which reeks of an irony we could not appreciate...

I would like to say this.
And just have

With colour comes life, with life comes the certainty of death, with this there is the uncertainty of reincarnation, and because of uncertainty, we are always more alert, because without all knowledge of the reasons and answers about the simple thing in life we are always searching for something...
I would like to start something...all you have to do is comment on this post, and I will write the inner meaning behind what you say.

Over to you...

Thursday, July 14, 2005

I am what I am not

I will be in the pages of a forever open book of existence in which the fools, the legends, the stupid, the brave and the worthy and the rest will lie in print beside me, and we will be bound by the same spine, but although we are all of the same origin I will never be the same as them, for I will not sell my soul for money, my eyes look upon people with kindness, not with scorn and disregard, and most important, I am me, and they will never change that. I shall live on among the worthy, while they will be forever indexed under sin. History does not look so kindly upon you once you have departed, as wealth does not pass over, unless it is true wealth, true richness...that which lies in my soul. I can live forever pround and happy. You will not be as such beyond this earth, you may be wealthy now, but I will be rich forever.

Well that was an interesting thing to happen. Occasionally, it just pours out, wether it is any good or not is up to you really.

But as in life, in death I shall be buried underneath the dirt that is poured upon me.

I have no idea what goes on in my head sometimes. but it sure is weird up there. I'm sure someone must have wired me wrong, not that I'm complaining-Weird is good!

Forever shall I walk the Earth, because never will the fucking buses stop for me godamn!

Ok, this is turning out weird but I shall keep at it, but at the moment sanity in this area ia about as stable as a fat man balancing on a teacup.

But to be fat is to benot a thin man inside a fat mans body, but indeed a fat a fat mans body

What the hell am I writing? Only those who know know, but who knows if they know that I don't know except to think that they know when I really know nothing of the sort, and in fact my confusement can be measured in knots that my brain is tying itself in as we speak. For is it not said that in order to know yourself you must know what you know. No, me neither?

I am in fact not entirely sure why I am still writing, or indeed, if I should check myself into the mental ward when I go to the hospital tonight, instead of going to hospital radio.

And now for something completely different...
I saw heavenly creatures recently, and it reminded me why peter jackson is one of my favourite directors. I think all his films are great. I have seen 7 of his films and thought all of them were amazing, and what more can you ask for. I am also really looking forward to King Kong, and I'm sure it will be great. I also saw the tie in book for the collaboration between Neil Gaiman and the Henson company yesterday, and it looks amazing. The henson complany are held dear in my heart because of one thing-Farscape. That was the only T.V series that made me instantly happy as soon as I watched it. No matter how shit I was feeling, Farscape would make me feel better. It could make me laugh, cry and feel on top of the world, and all in all it is, for me, by far the best thing on tv ever. I mean that. Farscape was so good, but the audience was so fickle, and it was sad that it came down, in the end, to audience figures dropping so low they had to cancel it. It actually got more viewers over here for most of the last season than it did in america-yes, this tiny island had more people watching it than the entirety of america, where figures were as low as 1.2 million. They went up to 2.2 million over here, which they never toppen in the last season over in america. It was just too complicated for americans to follow. It became too 'in'-you had to have been following it to have any idea of what was going on. It was a real shame, but there are 88 43minute long episodes and a 3 hour special, which was made possible by the fans complaining when the show was axed(they axed it without warning, so it was left on a cliffhanger-with no prospect of it being resolved-that was really shit of the execs). If you have never seen Farscape, go out and discover it now-you won't be dissapointed.

Well I have gone on far too long, and I am going to finish now by saying thank you for reading my blog, I am honoured that someone would take the time to read something I have written. Thank you, it means a lot. *big hug to you all*

Thats all folks

For now...

I'll be back...

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

Greetings from shitsville

For any of you that don't know(that'll most likely be all of you except rob then) that title is the title of a wildhearts song. I'm not all that unhappy at the moment really(no more than usual anyway) but I thought it would make a good title.

On to the post, and I may as well inform you at this point that I have no idea what I am going to write in this post, I never do. I just completely make it up off the top of my head. So what the hell shall I write, hmm. I know, no I don't...YES I DO!!!!

I will write about nothing,

Well that was interesting, and a complete waste of space, but that was in fact the first thing that came into my head. I have been in a pub though.

Or I could write about how I think that the satanic bible is a book I was considering buying today. These are the 9 satanic statements...I thought they were quite fair really. Especially IV, be kind to people that deserve it, well that is quite fair. I know this could sound like I am nast and evil, but I'm just curious about the subject. I also don't see much evil in these 9 statements.

Satan represents indulgence, instead of abstinence!
Satan represents vital existence, instead of spiritual pipe dreams!
Satan represents undefiled wisdom, instead of hypocritical self-deceit!
Satan represents kindness to those who deserve it, instead of love wasted on ingrates!
Satan represents vengeance, instead of turning the other cheek!
Satan represents responsibility to the responsible, instead of concern for psychic vampires!
Satan represents man as just another animal, sometimes better, more often worse than those who walk on all-fours, who, because of his "divine spiritual and intellectual development," has become the most vicious animal of all!
Satan represents all of the so-called sins, as they all lead to physical, mental, or emotional gratification!
Satan has been the best friend the church has ever had, as he has kept it in business all these years!

The 9 satanic sins are a bit more like what I thought satanism could be like, but still there are a lot of very valid points there.

1) Stupidity--The top of the list for Satanic Sins. The Cardinal Sin of Satanism. It's too bad that stupidity isn't painful. Ignorance is one thing, but our society thrives increasingly on stupidity. It depends on people going along with whatever they are told. The media promotes a cultivated stupidity as a posture that is not only acceptable but laudable. Satanists must learn to see through the tricks and cannot afford to be stupid.
2) Pretentiousness--Empty posturing can be most irritating and isn't applying the cardinal rules of Lesser Magic. On equal footing with stupidity for what keeps the money in circulation these days. Everyone's made to feel like a big shot, whether they can come up with the goods or not.
3) Solipsism--can be very dangerous for Satanists. Projecting your reactions, responses, and sensibilities onto someone else who is probably far less attuned that you are. It is the mistake of expecting people to give you the same consideration, courtesy, and respect that you naturally give them. They won't. Instead Satanists must strive to apply the dictum of "Do unto others as they do onto you." It's work for most of us and requires constant vigilance lest you slip into a comfortable illusion of everyone being like you. As has been said, certain utopias would be ideal in a nation of philosophers, but unfortunately (or perhaps fortunately, from a Machiavellian viewpoint) we are from that point.
4) Self-Deceit--It's in the Nine Satanic Statement but deserves to be repeated here. Another cardinal sin. We must not pay homage to any of the sacred cows presented to us, including the roles we are expected to play ourselves. The only time self-deceit should be entered is when it is fun, and with awareness. But then, it's not self-deceit!
5) Herd Conformity--That's obvious from a Satanic stance. It's all right to conform to a person's wishes, if it ultimately benefits you. But only fools follow along with the herd, letting an impersonal entity dictate to you. The key is to choose a master wisely instead of being enslaved by the whims of many.
6) Lack of Perspective--Again, this one can lead to a lot of pain for a Satanist. You must never lose sight of who and what you are, and what a threat you can be, by your very existence. We are making history right now, everyday. Always keep the wider historical and social picture in mind. That is an important key to both Lesser and Greater Magic. See the patterns and fit the things together as you want the pieces to fall into place. So not be swayed herd constraints--know that you are working on another level entirely from the rest of the world.
7) Forgetfulness of Past Orthodoxy's--Be aware that this one of the keys to brainwashing people into accepting something as "new" and "different", when in reality it's something that was once widely accepted but is now presented in a new package. We are expected to rave about the genius of the "creator" and forget the original. This makes for a disposable society.
8) Counterproductive Pride--The first word is important. Pride is great up to the point you begin to throw out the baby with the bath water. The rule of Satanism is if it works for you, great. When it stops working for you, when you've painted yourself into a corner and the only way out is to say, "I'm sorry, I made a mistake, I wish we could compromise somehow," then do it.
9) Lack of Aesthetics--This is the physical application of the Balance Factor. It is important in Lesser Magic and should be cultivated. It is obvious that no one can collect any money off it most of the tome so it is discouraged in a consumer society, but is an essential Satanic tool and must be applied for magical effectiveness. It's not what's supposed to be pleasing--it's what is. Aesthetics is a highly personal thing, reflective of one's own nature, but there are universally pleasing and harmonious configurations that should not be denied.

These are also very fair, I don't see the problem with this at all. Maybe I should do more research so I can comment fully, but so far it seems a lot more sensible and realistic than christianity.

Do not give opinions or advice unless you are asked.
Do not tell your troubles to others unless you are sure that they want to hear them.
When in another's lair, show him respect or else do not go there.
If a guest in your lair annoys you, treat him cruelly and without mercy.
Do not make sexual advances unless you are given the mating signal.
Do not take that which does not belong to you unless it is a burden to the person and he cries out to be relieved.
Acknowledge the power of magic if you have used it successfully to obtain your desires. If you deny the power of magic after having called upon it with success, you will lose all you have obtained.
Do not complain about anything to which you need not subject yourself.
Do not harm little children.
Do not kill non-human animals unless attacked or for your food.
When walking in open territory, bother no one. If someone bothers you, ask him to stop. If he does not stop, destroy him.
Anton Szandor LaVey, 1967 c.e.

Now I'm not turning into a satanist, and I do realise that religion gives hope to people, and sometimes it can be great, but there is also a lot of rubbish that in not necessary, and these rules seem more useful in the society of today. But if I now find out it is also all about killing and all that then obviously I won't agree, but these are fair to me. Feel free to comment, or come at me with burning pitchforks...

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

The bar is that way...

Well, lately I have been thinking a lot of, well lots of things, and I have come to the conclusion that life is generally unfair, and that, although we shouldn't accept it, there is not much we can do about it most of the time. I get pissed off by all sorts of things(terrorists for example, but I will do a proper, full post about that at some point, as it deserves my full on bile 'n' swear rant treatment). I have been annoyed by a loy of little things, but in the end, I have decided that I will not get worked up about it in a manner that will make me cynical and bitter(well not too much) but I will just write a rant, or rant to myself, and then just continue on my (not so) merry little way. Why? Well it is mainly because I hate being in a bad mood. I can be angry and something ang rant and soforth without needing to be in a bad mood. What is really the problem is other things. Generally other people. I do very little now, with weekends at work, the rest of the week is like a sunday, very little to do, and lots of time in which to do it. Except I have 5 days in which I have nothing to do. For some people this would be heaven. For me it is purgatory(I so spelt that wrong). It's not quite hell, but somewhere in-between. I seem to have no motivation to do anything, with writing more and learning the guitar top of my list, I seem not to get roung to it, or not have the motivation to do it. If I got out more and had more to do it might help with things like this, but as it is, I can easily do nothing except go to the library in a week, and sometimes go to the pub on friday. Part of the problem is people. I know so many, but in the way that you see someone on the street you 'know' and talk to them, but never see them otherwise. I always seem to get on alright with a lot of people, but no more. I talk more to people on a friday night than I do in the rest of the week combined mostly. Of course the people I get on the most mith are blogger people. Typically, all the people I get on with on blogger are in some far off countery, or on the other end of this one. It really is quite annoying that I juat can't seem to make proper friends. In a week my mobile is virtually redundant, save from the occasional text from Rob(the_prisoner,mr. barbsification). Unfortunately, this is not just a recent thing. I have always had this, although it is almost to the point of being ridiculous when I now know more people than ever, but do less than ever. I always considered myself a loner before, but I don't know now, because I don't have so much of a problem with being in contact with people, but have less friends. Oh well. Bit of a change from my usual rants anyway, till next time people.

Thursday, July 07, 2005

Oh for fucks sake!-Part1:It begins...

In which Motormouth lists the top 100 things which piss him off, then dies from exhaustion, which then becomes No.101

Will I reach 100? Oh yes, I am quite easily pissed off by all sorts of things, and you will find out what they are. I'm going to have to do this in instalments obviously, but I will finish it. Sometime...

1. I was watching highlights of the Metal Hammer Golden God Award last night, and i was reminded of 2 things which really piss me off. First was bands screaming. I like to be able to hear what they are singing, and for it to be in some way audible some people I can stand screaming because I know what they are going on about, and it is at least distantly related to singing(Nick Oliveri for example) but some of the people on there were just horrible, namely Trivium(next big thing best new band in the world my arse) they are NOT the best new band or whatever superlatives are heaped on them, they just aren't. Also Chimara. The singer had very impressive dreadlocks, but that was the best thing I could say about the band. Screaming bands FUCK OFF. Or the screamed equivalent-graaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarghhhhhhhhhhhh

2. That leads me on to the second one. Pits, namely circle pits, and all manner of other ones. Why do people feel the need to kick the shit out of everything to the music, and make sure they get hurt, and well not much else. No wonder metal is viewed as violent. What happened to good old headbanging eh? Why can't people just enjoy music as opposed to using as a way to create violence and hurt? The fact that the bands encourage this is not a good thing. Just say No people, and enjoy music. Surely thats not too much to ask?

Well, I only had time for 2 today, but I will be back with more soon!

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

Whats My Age Again?

You Are 26 Years Old


Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

Dan flavoured Ice cream!

You Are Rocky Road Ice Cream
Unpredictable and wild, you know how to have fun.
You're also a trendsetter who takes risks with new things.
You know about the latest and greatest - and may have invented it.
You are most compatible with vanilla ice cream.

Monday, July 04, 2005

The Earth is a shoe, and we are shit(Part1:Cunt)

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I have been a bit lazy with posting recently, prefering to read other blogs instead, but I think I'm about ready to start again with a rant...

For a long time I have wondered what some people want out of life. Is their sole purpose something amazing, something ambitious, Or, as I increasingly suspect, something selfish and destructive. I live in a place that can only be described as 'I want to spend as little time here as possible'. Sure there are some good places and some good people here, but not nearly as many as there should be, i.e, there should be more good people than bad people, and ideally a great deal more. This is worrying. People are becoming, in general, more stupid, ignorant, and more selfish. Put simply, they don't care about anything worth caring about. I care about a lot of thing worth caring about. First among these is myself. I say this because people forget that it is important to care about yourself, otherwise your life is going to be a bit miserable really. You need to like yourself, because why shouldn't you? If there is something you don't like about yourself, change it. You are important, and you should know that. I like myself, and I always make decisions that reflect this, for example I think before doing something, is this right, do I really want to do this, and will I still like and respect myself afterwards? Now this may well come across as very selfish, but it is important. You need to be like it because if you don't care enough about yourself it could affect others. If you don't like yourself, then what are doing to make you not like yourself, and is it affecting others? The most important thing about this is that you cannot only like yourself and care about yourself. You have to care about a lot of things, in fact anything that is worth caring about. Take live8 as an example. You could care about all sorts of things, but there are still millions of people on the other side of the world dying for reasons that can simply be classed as stupid(in terms of our society). People are dying over there because of things we take for granted over here, don't give a second thought to. The rising obesity levels are a real problem, especially when, while you are stuffing yourself like a pig for the roast, there are people dying because they don't even have crumbs. But it's not our problem right? Wrong, because you need to like yourself, and can you do that if you know you did nothing about millions of people dying from preventable causes? I couldn't. If everyone thought like this then the world would be a much better place, because it is easy to be a selfish cunt who cares for nothing except booze, sex, money and himself. It isn't that difficult to be nice, but it is very difficult to be eveything you could be. You could do all you can for charity, make other people happy by giving them presents and time, help the enviroment by recycling and through not polluting. It is hard to do all this, but at the end of the day you would be able to sit back and think, what a great person I am, and how many people can say that? Not enough.

But thats not all I can think of to write, oh not by a long way. I have also been thinking about more complex things, like the deeper workings of the human mind. If someone is a cunt(I have started using this word a lot simply because nobody is going to drop dead if I swear, and also because language is a form of expression, and to accurately express just how nasty some people are, you need a strong word. If only there would come a day when there was no-one I could use such a word to describe, but alas, that day is not getting any nearer.) then why are they a cunt? Are they born like that? Maybe, but there must obviously be many intervening factors in how they got to where they are(the gutter of humanity) and why they insist upon staying there(and also how why they are not dealt with, in fact they are usually the most sucessfull people in life). We are supposed to be a superior race, but that is not the case, except for the minority that have risen above the petty squabbles, killing, greed and corruption that consume most people. We are shit, basically, that should be cleaned from off the shoe that is the Earth. We cannot be removed easily hower, having spread ourselves deep into the crevices of the Earth(shoe), and we are of course the particularly smelly type of shit, that, even once removed, leaves its stench lingering behind, as a reminder of its presence. We have also made the foot that wears the shoe smelly as well, through the running it has to do to try and get us off, and the clouds of stench linger in the atmosphere(...of the shoe).
That was one way of putting it anyway. But whatever, my rambling is down to life being shit(although not the same shit that was on the shoe, but a different kind, one that doesn't stink so bad, but there is more of it, and it comes along more often). Not all of it is shit, but there is a lot. Now I know I spent a portion of this ramble talking about Africa, and they do have it a hell of a lot worse than us(hell being the operative word), but that doesn't mean the problems we have should be discounted. I cannot list all that I would like to now, mainly due to time(I am in the library making this up as I type and with a time limit of 50 minutes per session that I need to use to do other things as well) but also to do with making this post too long. I will continue this at a not so later have been warned...
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